Depression

I'm sorry I'm sorry i'm irrational I'm so i try to push your buttons I'm sorry i don't trust you. I''m sorry that the reality is that i go home and cry at night for reasons you don't understand. I'm sorry you won't understand, i wish you could see, i wish i could explain. But. …

I still love you

My love, Moving on is so hard. I can't bare to watch the person I loved for so long fall involve with someone else. The person I thought i was going to love forever. The person who had fallen outta love with me. The person who hurt me is so many different ways, who made …

I’m sorry

I'm sorry I'm sorry that when you look at me you're not looking at the love of your life I'm sorry that you only see a girl I'm sorry you can't see how much i love you I'm sorry i'm not perfect I'm sorry i'm not the person you want me to be I'm sorry …

Space

Space isn't a bad thing. Quite frankly it is one of the factors in every relationship that you need to have. You have to be secure in yourself as you are in the relationship and thats why I probably shouldn't be in one at the moment. Space is one of those things where you need …

Wise

Alright you guys.. I  was going to come here and rant about how horrible my relationship is and everything. But instead I talked to my mom and she gave me some great advice. Actually referenced me to a poem by William Blake "eternity for an hour" SOO good! Actually guys if you have time.. all …

Insecurities

I try to portray myself as a confident upright person. I really do... i've said this before but I am know for doing the fake it till you make it kind of thing. Kind of like when you wag a dogs tail they become happy? Right, so honestly.. I'm not. Confidence is the most important …

My writing

I have noticed that I just write about what I'm thinking and different things pop into my head and i jot them down. Thats not the correct way to go about these things though. I really just need to make myself focus on one thing and not go on different tangents. Any advice is appreciated …