Alright you guys.. I was going to come here and rant about how horrible my relationship is and everything. But instead I talked to my mom and she gave me some great advice. Actually referenced me to a poem by William Blake “eternity for an hour” SOO good! Actually guys if you have time.. all of his stuff is super good and insightful. There is another one i love and here is it:
He who binds to himself a joy
Does the winged life destroy;
But he who kisses the joy as it flies
Lives in eternity’s sun rise.
This is going to be so so hard for me but first off, I need to let bye gones be bye gones. Honestly If i have forgiven something i need to stop bringing it up. I need to stop freaking out because I need to keep and open hand.. actually to all of my friends. They have to come to me, and I will be loyal but i will not case after a friend anymore. Same goes with boyfriends. I will let him text me first, I will let him chase after me and I really need to just stop being desperate and mad if he hasn’t texted me back right away. I need to be happy to see them come and go and stick to my word. I will be less crazy, and i need to stick to all of this. I will let you know my results but i do recommend it.